by Marvell » Sep 5th, '08, 20:04
Having come back from a long break, I return fresh and inspired. I've not performed a trick for over a year and I've not maintained any skills in that period either. Here are some thoughts.
Disenchantment happens. I've been through it is a number of times and for a number of reasons. If it hits you, sit back and relax. Don't imagine that buying another trick book, gaff deck, DVD or even changing style will help. It's a lull, it's like writer's block. Don't try to fight it.
I sat, surrounded by a couple of hundred pounds worth of books, DVDs, cards and other bits and bobs. I wondered what the hell I was doing it all for.
I decided I'd read one of those old books which I'd bought because someone said to and it was totally uninspiring. I wondered why I'd got into this in the first place.
I felt I was a long way from being a good magician but I knew I was better than an embarrassing uncle. I felt flat.
So what was it that turned me back around. I'll tell you.
My Polish friend came back to the UK. She had a playing card in her purse in that bit where photos or ID cards go. It was a card I'd given her after a trick. It was a tricked I'd performed on her last day in England when we all thought she was leaving for ever. That was over a year ago. She'd still got the card.
The trick had that much of an impact on her that she'd kept it.
Also, I friend of mine's younger brother approached me and started nattering about magic and we spent about three hours talking about what magic isn't (just doing the trick) and what it is (wonder and entertainment). He was really inspired and consequently really inspiring. It reminded me how I used to feel.
I rooted through all my kit and found him RTCM and a couple of packs of cards. I found a pack myself and had a fiddle. I was rubbish, but it was good, simple, wholesome stuff.
So my advice if you're feeling disenchanted is to sit back and try to remember why you loved magic and the impact you had in the past. Don't force yourself to do something you're not enjoying.