My problem is sometimes I just can't follow the instructions or I can follow the instructions but feel so awkward in doing the routine that I don't have the confidence to perform to anyone....
Welcome, brother, join the clan!! To be honest, most instructions are easy enough to follow but there are some which defy understanding unless your IQ is larger than the National Debt. Another of my pet gripes is where I've shelled out many of the readies for what I assumed is a completely self contained miracle, I'm ploughing through the instructions OK and then get to the bit where it says, 'now simply perform the Aardvark Count and....' This is when deep, deep despair sets in!
However, once the 'Aardvark Count' is discovered and 'mastered' the whole thing takes on a new dimension because now you're entertaining people instead of worrying about moves etc. I've become quite used to TT's, in the form of D'Lites, by wearing them when I take the dog for a walk at night. The reactions from motorists stuck at the traffic lights as I transfer lights from one ear to the other, from the dog's ear to my pocket and so on is quite astounding and I'll probably be arrested for flashing soon! However, I can wear the things with great confidence and not worry - the hands assume a very natural and relaxed position because they're forgotten about.