I wasn't discussing my insecurities, merely pointing out that I have some and why... as to Michael Jay... don't care. My first impressions of you were proven to be correct. I let down my defenses only to get screwed; not only in your actions on the Bunny but the fact that you and that fat red-faced drunk from the hutch and two or three others went to other forums to air your laundry and to perpetuate the harassment. I've even had three individuals notice how one person in particular seems to be a stalker when it comes to me and no, that's not my paranoia it is how others have seen things unfolding in this past year and who have laughed at how cunning and sly this intellectual smart-ass ISN'T.
Now I don't believe I've ever set my foot down and said that Mentalism MUST BE PRESENTED MY WAY... in fact I know I haven't and I seem to have five or six books out there that back that up as well as numerous talks, lectures, etc. As to the issue in this thread that somehow got misdirected and "twisted"... I haven't a clue what I've said that got everyone so hot and bothered... I merely encourage people to look at what has worked and why... I encourage people to step back and look at what they do and ask critical questions based on proven formulas... if that is wrong then someone needs to tell the Theater Professors of countless Universities as well as those dealing with art, writing, etc. Critical questions and finding logic and viability in what we are trying to convey is a prime ingredient in being more than someone that just does tricks or writes words on paper or putzes around with a blob of clay... it has to have cohesion and reason behind it and that is ALL I've ever encouraged or "insisted" on... if that is arrogant, out of bounds, rude, contemptuous, etc. then I am sorry... I thought this was a place where serious minded enthusiast gathered to discuss and look at things.
Yes, I will figuratively slap down someone for being stupid and dealing with self-will vs. listening and trying something "new" (though it may be old)... Vernon used to slap you up side the head or crack your knuckles with his wand and I've had other teachers that weren't quite that kind when it came to explaining the facts of life to a novice. If you wanted to learn you buckled down and LISTENED rather than argue and insist on doing your way... When you were ready in your mind to do something your own way, then you did it and allowed the teacher to critique it.
When I was doing big illusions I knew I'd come into my own when I could enchant my teacher with his own equipment and illusions he'd made famous. As a mentalist I have three indicators; the results seen by my reluctant students when they finally follow through with what I've encouraged -- the reactions and "belief" I gain from my audiences -- and when my fellows smile wryly and nod, confirming that I've done very well.
Knowing what I've EARNED in life and hearing the rebellious statements some make or having those that have gained from me AT ABSOLUTELY NO COST TO THEM... it wears thin and fast. But I've been warned for years about giving away too much and that I need to find more larceny in my heart, write more books and charge you b******s an arm and leg for it time and again just the way Docc, Kenton, Luke and everyone else is doing. But I'm a fool, I love magic and I love teaching and the only thing I ever ask is for a bit of respect. But at the same time, I rub people wrong because I don't consign the current commercial rally cry of mixed and meshed garbage and I've deliberately raised questions in the mind of folks that follow a manipulating angry old reprobate -- questions most of them have never considered on issues said gent and his cronies keep well hidden and of course "spun".
Recently I have had to prove to people that I really am dealing with several chronic illnesses because someone within these forums has planted the rumor that I am not and it's all part of a con... I have dealt with more Piracy on material that belongs to a few of my friends and am still working with local authorities in an investigation on a local Psychic Scam operator. Then I come in here a few days ago to see MichaelJay's childish post and then this little hurrah...
Thanks for helping me see the light guys...
