by Sexton Blake » Nov 13th, '06, 21:57
Yes, practice so you’re utterly confident about your ability to do the trick flawlessly, as everyone has said. Yes, public speaking (and thus, presumably, also performing) is the most common phobia, so nervousness is only to be expected. However, I think there’s something else that I don’t believe has been mentioned yet.
I recall hearing someone say that nerves with magicians are partly due to ‘guilt’ - it’s because you know you’re lying to people; so, in effect, it induces all the things that a polygraph picks up to detect lies: increased heart rate, rapid breathing, sweating, shaking, etc. When I heard this, I immediately thought, ‘Ahh! What a complete load of rubbish.’ Never mind that it appeared to be so entirely speculative and unlikely an explanation as to be almost Freudian, the fact was that I never considered myself as ‘lying’ when I was doing a trick - and, if I’m getting away with the ‘deception’, I don’t feel guilty: I feel happy and content.
But... well... over time, I’ve come to believe there’s something in the Lying Theory. I’ll tell you the whys.
Though I’m not personally extrovert and gregarious - quite the opposite - my Real Life job requires me, not infrequently, to talk in front audiences or do things (most often live) on radio or TV. I am never remotely nervous about this. (For info, ‘introvert’, in its scientific sense rather than as most people use it, is not the same a ‘painfully shy’ - it’s not uncommon for an introvert to be much more comfortable giving a presentation to 200 people than most people are, but far less comfortable trying to make small talk with three people at a party). But I do often get nervous as hell when doing tricks. So, other than the ‘lying’ aspect, what’s the difference between the two performances - certainly not that I’ve practiced my Real Life stuff; mostly I’m in situations where I have to ad lib.
Is it fear of messing up? Well, maybe partly. But:
(1) After looking unflinchingly into the most hidden recesses of my soul, I really, truly still believe that even my deepest subconscious would prefer to do something stupid during the card trick I’m showing to a couple of vaguely-interested mates rather than do something stupid in front of four million viewers.
(2) The difficulty of the trick (i.e. the likelihood that’ll I’ll do something wrong) hardly seems to matter. I can start shaking during self-working things.
What’s equally interesting is the times when I’m not nervous. Take just a few days ago. I did a trick that was my version of (if you care) Gag Sandwich. This isn’t technically demanding at all - I need to catch a break on a returned card, do a pass, do a shuffle control, and do that sandwich revelation at the end. Not Lennart Green, but definitely not self-working: there are several places where I could do it wrong, or get caught. Also, I’d never performed it before - and, though I’d practiced, I hadn't done so all that much. Yet, I wasn't at all nervous when I did it. The only thing I can identify is that my version of this trick - unlike the original’s bing-bang presentation - goes on for ages, and I’ve given it a Cluedo/murder mystery plot, and it’s (vaguely) more spooky than funny, and there’s playing card trivia woven into the - ahem - narrative. Put another way: the vast bulk of my attention isn’t on doing the mechanics of the trick (the ‘lying’), it’s on telling the story.
What’s more, let me tell you what often gives me the shakes: the thought that the specs will already know the method of a trick I’m going to do. What’s fearsome about that? Disappointing, maybe, but fearsome? It’s not my ‘fault’ - they won’t really be catching me out, or laughing at my clumsy sleight; I won’t berate myself for my bad technique. It’s understandable only in terms of, ‘They’ll know - right off and whatever I do - exactly how I’m lying to them.’ It’s the hot guilt you have while replying, ‘No. I did not,’ when your mother’s asked you if it was you who shaved the cat - and she knows you shaved the cat, and you know she knows.
Extrapolating, could it be that lots of practice (and, even more so, lots of performances) with a particular trick doesn’t lead to less nervousness merely because one is more confident with one’s ability to do it? Could the oft cited, ‘Do it until you can do it with thinking,’ advice work against the shakes not exactly because it means you'll have it totally down pat? If you’re doing a trick ‘without thinking about it’, and have performed it so many times that it happens almost on auto-pilot, what’s happening is that it’s become so natural and instinctive that you’re hardly aware that you’re lying anymore. You’re probably consumed with connecting with the specs and creating an atmosphere, while your hands false shuffle on their own without telling you. You don’t ‘know’ you are lying. Your 'lying' is the real cause of your nerves, but practising and telling a particular lie over and over turns you into a polygraph-beating pathological liar.
That went on a bit, I'm afraid, but I think it’s an important angle that didn’t appear to have been mentioned yet in this thread. As for it helping, maybe it doesn’t at all, but maybe it suggests that it’s a good idea to really, really think about/work on/give your focus to your plots. Have them eclipse the method entirely. Which, from the spec’s point of view, is what we want anyway, right?