by Smooth » Jan 21st, '07, 05:07
Well it is only expected. People are going to judge no matter what. It doesn't matter what I do, and for what reason, there will always be one person that doesn't agree. When I decided that I was going to be a professional magician, my goals were very clear.
I've always been the type of person that went all out. When I decided to join the military for the United States, I went to the hardest military organization it had. When I was in the Marines and stationed in Iraq, I did the best I could and put myself in danger for the sake of others. When I decided to be a professional magician, I said I was going to be sure that I reached that top 1% of magicians that become superstars.
Yeah it is self-centered. Yes it shouldn't be the goal. But what would you expect me to say? "I want to be some local magician who does his magic part time and never gets recognition for it." That isn't my style. If I was going to be a full time magician, I was going to be sure that I can not only support myself, but my family as well. And now, I have alot of magician friends that just get by. I love them to death.
The difference between me and them, is that I'm single, no kids, and have all the time and energy in the world to take a risk like this. So, what can I do in this world to grab attention and have it directed towards me? If you want to judge me for thinking logically, then I guess I am wrong.
I honestly want to entertain, and I want to make people happy. But at the same time I will not lie for one second and say I want to be successful at it as well. To me it isn't enough to just do what I do in obscurity. I have my mind set out to doing all I can. And it seems to me that more and more magicians (or people within the magic community) want to stop me at it.
I do want to give the money to charity. The charity thing has nothing to do with all this. The real publicity grabber are all the shows that I will be doing this year. Starting with a hour TV spot in Mexico in Feburary (well, we are filming in Feb.), to Germany in March, back to Tokyo in October and all the other things I'm doing. I'm doing the charity thing because I want to give back to the world that gave so much to me. And I see the skill that I have developed can raise money faster than car washes, raffle tickets and everything else these charities are doing.
So do I want to be famous? yeah, to an extent. Let us be serious. Do you think that David Blaine put himself in Ice for no reason? That is just the nature of our business. Look at me as a person and think about how many TV / movie deals are coming my way. NONE. Even if I do the stunt will I be famous? NO. Nobody cares about that.
I've been doing stunts for a decade now, but none of you have heard about it. It just so happens that I have a bigger following, heavy MySpace following at that, and that this claim about the truck has gotten alot more notice than my other ones due to the internet.
Sorry I got long winded at this, but I wanted to make myself clear. When you sit down and wonder about how you want your career to pan out, and your major competition are Cyril, Dynamo, Blaine, Angel and Derren Brown.. you have to think about how do you think Smoothini the Ghetto Houdini can even match up with all of these guys, when you have hundreds of even better performers out there (without TV deals) doing there thing.
I think the matrix and say, "Let me get hit by a truck!"
LOL