Hello, my name is Tom a.k.a Eshly here on the boards.
I seem to have upset a few people -perhaps irrevocably- but I always at least TRY to be the bigger man if I can bring myself to be; so I'm making this thread to apologize to people and also to introduce myself a bit as well.
My name is Tom, I am 17 years old. I have been doing magic for two years, though I've been interested in it since I was four and first saw Copperfield flying. My two favorite "areas" of magic are Mentalism and Flying/Levitation illusions, which is an odd combination which I never really can combine. I fully admit I am new and niaeve in the world of magic; for which I am sorry.
I also suffer from Aspergers syndrome (a form of autism) and Bipolar Disorder (also known as Manic Depression) as some of you may know. I try and not to let this disadvantage me, but it does cause me to act slightly differently to many other magicians/mentalists: I tend to think about illusions and tricks an aweful lot, taking it into a deeper level than necessary; to make the illusion more complex and much harder to reconstruct from the layman point of view. I have a phobia of laymen working out what I am doing.
I understand many people think I am wasting my time with that, and I am over-complicating things; but I think it fits my style, and I do not try and force anyone else to do it. I agree that such things as a plane add-a-number, or a one-a-head routine can be perfectly useable, but I like thinks to be very hard to figure out.
Another problem I have been having on the boards, is that every time I ask a question, there always seems to be someone (usually with a very high number of posts) who says "You should know this; go read 13 Steps", and when I am unable to find such information in 13 Steps and ask for the page number, they won't tell me.
I wish I could apologize for this, but I cannot in all honesty say that I think it is entierly my fault. I have read 13 Steps a lot, and I admit I forget a lot of it (I have "blank" spots in my memory for days, and cannot remember anything before the age of 10), but I also feel like some people are deliberately being unhelpful.
So to anyone who thinks I did trolling or something to annoy them, I'm sorry; I have and had no intention of upsetting anyone.
If theres anything I missed, I'll try and come back and address it.

Yours,
Tom
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edit: I think this might be in the wrong forum. Please don't delete it Mandrake, but move it if needed
