Long ago I affirmed and visualized a single "dream" if you would; to be a modern-day Wizard who had knowledge and insight along side skill and ability around both, the theatrical and more metaphysical aspects of Magic. In my mind to be a "real Wizard" one had to know both in order to understand the greater "truth" of it all.
Today I am seen by many as one of the more versed and knowledgeable people in both, the craft as well as this thespian aspect there of. I have my letters of merit, as it were, on either side of this particular fence; degrees as a theologian and historian as well as accolade and accomplishment as a showman which have laying deep beneath said veneer, the scars of an investigator and "paladin" -- one that has used his knowledge of both in "silent" manner, so as to rid society of those who seem more predatory of inclination, than subservient to spirit.
With all that said I believe the real issue, at least in regards to this question, is that learning to balance the two and our perspectives are paramount. Too, as individuals, we must solidify our own definition of things as it applies to us and our personal perspectives and philosophy in life, realizing that none of it need be carved so deeply into stone as to limit us and our potential -- our obligation -- to grow and "evolve" but at the same time, rooting those points of view in a way that allow us to invoke them as we create.
My personal involvement within the more esoteric avenues of things lends to me and my character certain "allusions" via which I am able to add to the idea of who and what I am as a Psychic Entertainer. Everything from my past as allowed me to build on the image I am now viewed as being on both, the theatrical and more personal or spiritual side of things. This is generally a true perception and at the same time, because of the personal ideas and understandings of others, some will add to or take from that character, as they require. Tomo for an example, probably sees me more as a "charlatan" for many reasons than someone like John Riggs or Richard Webster would view me yet both sources are translating the same available information on and around me.
When it comes to the material I would present or create for a performance; well of course my idea as to who and what I am comes into play. In some cases, such as my PSYCHIC HOT-LINE routine, I'm deliberately striving to deliver the kind of hard hitting bit that feels 100% real, just to show to the public how much can be done that looks "real" but is 100% fake. It's not an "expose" act, but we do tell them after the fact that everything they just experienced was a trick. It is an approach that is far more kind than bludgeoning folks with fowl language and calling them idiots, as many in today's world seem to believe to be more appropriate vs. lending a modicum of respect to their patrons and that more private side of one's living.
In other words... it's not our job to preach but we can share ideas and lend inspiration through our performance. We can take a theme directly from Crowley if you dare, and sew it into our act (I have and do). But we must likewise understand, especially if we are looking at this craft as something vocational; that what we like or want to do isn't always practical or "viable" when dealing with the public. We must be careful in our approach and in just how many "seeds" we scatter.
Jay Scott Berry in his shows from the 80s, deliberately revealed images of the Tarot and conveyed the idea of true wizardry... he was not alone in this, examples can be seen in the work of Jeff McBride, Eugene Burger and the late Stephan Minch just to name a few. Then again there are those of the ICBM (Inner Circle of Bizarre Magick) and the Shadow Network that specialize in this sort of mayhem... Many, such as David Birtwell and Joe Lantarie being consummate students of the esoteric and welders of genuine occult influence both, on and off stage e.g. I'd say you would be safest in finding such groups vs. opening that side of your own life as well as your philosophy in forums of this particular mode.
As to those that do not believe in Magick... the power of creative thought and affirmation... the events mentioned in the opening of this post are things done at ages 10 and 12. IN looking at Christopher's Illustrated History I had pointed at the grand illusions of Thurston and Dante, saying very directly that I'd some day own and do those very same effects... something I've done...
Destiny can be self-fulfilling, but we must turn the energy in some way or, as Hermes stated, "All is Mind, the Mind Creates All"...
Magick is real! We just call it Science now days...
