Hi TM Members..
I just thought I'd share my current relationship with my magic with you..
I got into magic first because I was a Tarot Reader who met a close up magician in a new age shop I was working in about 10 years ago.
I was so blown away by what he showed me that I persued an interest with magic for a few years but then I dropped it.
A few weeks ago I found myself re-discovering my old magical interests and decided to give it all another go.
Through all this time I have been working at my "day job" as a Tarot/Psychic Reader.
Here is my bone of contention..
I don't really want to practice in front of friends, continuously thrusting my deck-of-cards in front of them because I don't want to have to keep going into the scripts and the role that performing a trick/routine involves. When I'm with my friends, I'd rather hang out with my friends and be "real" with them without using them too much as guinea pigs.
But I really want to perform magic (without becoming a bore or even worse a magic-prat).
It's such a chicken-and-egg situation.
Because in order to perform magic, you need the confidence, and in order to get the confidence you need the experience (and presumably the learning curve of doing numerous tricks in an ultimately lukewarm fashion until they are honed).
So where do I go and to whom do I inflict my magic onto?


This leads me to thinking that maybe I should perform for charity first.. and so I am going to be open to giving free performances when and where I can.
And if anyone on here has any ideas or offers then I would be most greatful.
I think that's it really (for now).
I just suppose I need to add that I can practice as much as I want in front of a mirror, at home to myself etc.. but nothing will compensate for the experience of performing in front of real live people with their eccentricities and foibles and randomnesses.. all this whilst I'm trying to remember the mechanics of the trick also and pull the whole thing off! You can perform a trick to your friends, once, twice, three times, but to get the real experience comes from performing so many times in front of so many people and the whole thing is such a nerve-wracking daunting task, to notch up the experience!
I don't have the same problem with my Tarot readings but that's only because of over 10 years experience of dealing with all manner of people and questions.
I just wish I had the same amount of experience with my magic and mentalism and feel thoroughly daunted by the forseeable task of gaining that experience.. which is why I gave it up for a few years earlier on. But I'm determined not to be thwarted this time. So all advice greatfully recieved

Thanks for reading this rambling.