by Quicksand Kerry Devile » Oct 11th, '04, 00:06
It sounds very familiar to me, not as a magician (which I am fledgling at to say the least), but as a musician.
<snip> .. I've just written a lengthy reply here, but reading it back it was way too depressing, a huge moan. The gist is, I also started young (I was a precocious keyboard player, I did my first pro gig when I was 13 and took on all the work I could get while I was at school) only to eventually find the realities of being a jobbing musician killed my passion and made me hate music, because the motives had changed; I wasn't doing it because I loved it, I was doing it because I had to to eat.
I won't go into too much more detail now (maybe we can chat sometime), but what I will say is that having a talent can be a burden because everyone thinks they know how you should use it, you have to identify that different routes always exist, whatever people say who think they know best. You have to find the one that's right for you; it may not necessarily be the most lucrative (at least in the short term), in which case a lot of people will tell you it's wrong, because a lot of people measure success only in pound signs.
Do things for the right reasons (yourself!) and try to have something else to fall back on to pay the bills if required (I neglected this to my cost, and it was a big factor in turning music into a drudgery-filled chore instead of something I loved). From what I've seen of you you have a level head and a way of keeping your feet on the ground that I can only wish I'd had at your age; that you even started this thread is a sign of that, and also I suspect a sign you have the strength to succeed on your own terms one way or another.