Rather than start a brand new thread, I thought I'll just tag on my own problem (and plea for some help) here.
I've read through the threads about shaking hands, performance anxiety, nerves, etc. but I think my problem may be a little deeper.
So far I've only been performing for friends - close friends; but even so, my hands shake terribly. Not only that, my mind goes totally blank: I forget my patter, I can't think straight and do what needs to be done next, and my voice just get progressively softer and
softer and
softer till it's just incoherent mumbling.
I think it may be nerves or panic, and even though I have practiced the routine to bits, done it with full patter to the mirror till I can almost do it with my eyes closed, the moment my mind goes blank, everything is forgotten.
And invariably, the trick fails. I tried doing something simple first, self-working tricks, but even those were not able to get me up on my feet properly. It's embarrassing, no,
shameful, and I feel bad for my friends who have to try and console me when I screw things up.
I don't know if more practice is the solution since I suspect my case might be closer to a full-blown panic attack scenario (exaggerating here). And even though they are friends who usually won't rub it in your face even if you manage to forget your pants, I feel that I really shouldn't be doing such bad magic in front of them until I get over this problem.
So... I don't know. Help?
