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Before I begin, please don't read this thinking that this is a sympathy post...

I've mentioned it elsewhere on here, but for reasons that I will come to in a moment I would like to say that I have OCD. It's a mild form of it mind, but still enough to be a right pain.

Now, so why my admittance of such a thing? What is the point you may ask? Well, for several years now it is something that I have kept a secret. I found it embarassing and not even my close friends know about it. In fact, in my whole life, I think that I have only told two people about it. I have gotten to a point in my life however where I want to get it sorted out. So I am going to see a doctor soon with a view to seeing a specialist. I know the sorts of things that are involved with it, and I know that I'll have to go in to a lot of detail about it there, so I wanted to take the first few steps and actually say that yes, I do have OCD. I figure that if I can start telling people about it then it should make it easier for me to talk about it more openly when I need to.

Again, you probably don't care, and I'm not really looking for replies or anything like that here - it's just good for me to know that I have said it, and that it is out there. Also it might explain why sometimes my posts of late read a bit weirdly.

Once again this is not a sympathy post - it just feels good for me to know that I am telling people about it, and to know that I no longer have to hide it.

I think it is really great that you feel you can share this important annoncement with us all. I am sure we all wish you well and i for one would like to hear about any problems you have in the future. Sometimes people feel better by sharing things with others.

Thank you.

Hey, that's cool. And it's also cool that you feel here is a friendly and safe enough place to say that! I wish you all the best with the challenges - and triumphs - that I'm sure will come your way.

Edit: ha, almost identical post without knowing it - must be the general consensus

Its very nice you have shared it with us all.
Thank you.

Thank you as well. As I said earlier, I didn't write this looking for sympathy but your kind wishes really do mean a lot to me.

Thanks again guys.

Don't think this means we will stop winding you up No special treatment

Only joking my friend, it takes real guts to stand up and shout to the World. Very well done

stephenmagic wrote:Don't think this means we will stop winding you up No special treatment

Of course not I'm still the same old me

Thanks once again all.

Cheers Cardza - hope it all goes well for you and please let us know how you get on from time to time. As Stephen rightly says, we won't treat you any different now than we did before, we'll still be nasty, 'orrible, critical, aggressive, and many other loveable things!

Congratulations on taking your first step to recovery!!!

And do let us know how you get on.
We do care.

OCD is hard to live with, I tend to be alittle like that sometimes and it really can be a pain in the *rse...

Thanks again guys. I shall let you know how I get on but it'll be a while.

It's intimidating admitting this kind of problem to a doctor, let alone lay people who might have mis-conceptions. The trouble is, if everyone keeps hush when they have these sorts of problems, then everyone thinks of it as something obscure that they don't really know much about and often view with false ideas that aren't helpful to the sufferer or to anyone who knows/cares about them.

Admitting it to yourself can be scary, or a relief, but either way you're doing the right thing. I hope you have a helpful doctor who can point you in the right direction to deal with your particular problems. I know how this kind of thing can get in the way, so good on you for dealing with it.

As others have said, keep us informed

Thanks. I've been telling all of my mates recently, and they've all been very understanding, which is nice. Unsurprisingly it is hardest telling the people that I have known for the longest, but thankfully it is all going well.

For me, it is something of a relief. In the past five years or so I have only ever really told two people, and I reckon that keeping it bottled up is part of what's made it worse. So yeah, it feels good to tell people and I know that combatting it won't be easy and will take time, but I am looking forward to the challenge ahead of me, and thankfully now I have some people who I can talk to it about and who understand what it is like to go through and have.

Cardza wrote:Thanks. I've been telling all of my mates recently, and they've all been very understanding, which is nice. Unsurprisingly it is hardest telling the people that I have known for the longest, but thankfully it is all going well.

I'll agree with telling people you've known the longest being hard, they have all these fixed ideas about you, and when something unexpected and new comes into the equation you wonder how they will react, if they will cope with it. I'm glad you've got friends who've managed. It's not the greatest thing in the world when you can't confide in the people you call friends. I myself have come to terms with the fact that I will probably never be able to confide in most of them, and I'm okay with that. It's a lonely place anyway, and the people I need to have my back, have it. Medical support is vital.