First of all, welcome to Talk Magic, I hope you find it to be a helpful place to help you grow into magic.
FAQZOR wrote:is YouTube cheating on me?
No, you're cheating yourself by using Youtube. The videos you'll find there are usually wrong, unhelpful, and pretty poor examples of what magic should be.
Do yourself the favor of doing things right. Start with the Royal Road to Card Magic, Bobo's Modern Coin Magic, and Mark Wilson's Complete Course in Magic. These can be found in nearly any bookstore or online. These will help you not only understand the methods behind magic, but what it can and should be as an art. These books are the best building blocks available and will help you find your strengths, your weaknesses, and your interests.
Good luck